Singing
2025-04-18 21:02:34
I sing to myself all the time, at home, in the car, at karaoke (lol). I used to post covers back around 2016 to 2021. It brought me a lot of joy to make them, but I stopped. I felt emotionally stopped up. I didn't feel creative. I didn't feel like I deserved to be creative. I felt like I should spend my time doing more productive things like try and make more money or do things around the house. Then I felt guilty and shameful for not always doing those things whenever I just wanted to just relax, and that made it worse. THEN I felt even worse because I'm an adult and was being a b-word about everything. Last week I finally posted my first cover in such a long time. It felt so great. Taking this first step so to speak broke down whatever wall I had up stopping myself from doing something I enjoy. I forgot how much just the process of learning a song makes me happy. I don't even need to make a video of it. I'm able to lose myself in doing this again, and I'm grateful.
