Beginning of the Year Reflections
2017-01-14 17:05:20
This year I've set a lot of goals for myself. I've never really done that before. I've tried making New Year's Resolutions, but I've failed so many times. I've never explicitly said, "I'm gonna accomplish this."
There's been a lot of factors influencing my setting goals for myself. I've had full time jobs before, but they were in between college semesters. That caused me to have the mindset that I would have a break from working all the time. However, I do work all the time now. I've developed a discipline and drive from being a professional software developer.
In college I was never really ambitious in terms of setting goals for myself. The only goal I had was graduating; I just wanted to be done. College is really draining, and all my mind was on was finishing. Now that I'm out I don't have that stress anymore. I can focus on things that are personally more important to me. Also I have more free time to accomplish those things because I don't have anymore homework, and I don't have to study anymore.
I've figured out things I like to do. I know I love to sing, but I've (re)discovered my desire to post videos of my doing that. I've also figured out that I like to vlog, even though before I never even wanted to watch vlogs. I had such a closed mind regarding vlogs; that was ignorant of me. I'm so glad to gave them a chance because that's most of my video consumption now. If I never started watching them, I probably never would've started myself and found that this is something that I love doing. Another thing that I've learned I love doing is blogging. I've made my own website, and I'm trying to at least blog weekly on it. I've worked really hard on it, and I think it shows. I couldn't write in high school. I flat out couldn't. My writing wasn't very interesting, and I would say the same thing over and over because I couldn't think of what to say. I loathed writing because I wasn't confident in my skills; and I felt like no matter what I did, I'd get a bad grade. It's different now.
I love writing. I love writing what I feel or think. I love not having a rubric to follow. This freedom is what I believe helps me write. I get excited about writing. Whenever something pops into my head, I quickly try to jot it down so I can pick it up later and finish that thought. I really enjoy it.
I've figured out a lot about myself this past year, and I couldn't be happier about it. I'm glad I've set goals for myself. I've had a lot of encouragement especially from my girlfriend and brother that's bolstered my self-confidence. That helped me start a lot of what I've done, and they've encouraged me to do more. I've also gotten a lot of support from my friend Dana Blouin. He has a lot of great content on his YouTube channel. He also has a video about setting goals, and after watching it I decided to make an actual list. Making that list was and is really important. I feel like this approach will be better for me than just setting resolutions again. The clearer definition of these goals will help me stay focused better than just some vague resolutions. I'm so excited to accomplish everything I've set out to do.
